It’s been a week, and once again I feel like talking. I have been busy with editing, painting, a little sewing, and cooking. Also, thanks to an early birthday gift from M, I have been organizing:
See my last entry if you want to see the before shot. The table, which we got at Michael’s for $75 after using a 50% off coupon, has made a wonder of a difference. It has all the right organizational components, and I’m able to keep it fairly uncluttered as a result. When my workspace is uncluttered, I am more enthusiastic about painting. So you see, this is a very good thing for me. I try very hard to be resourceful and make the best of what’s available while avoiding unnecessary purchases; I see this as money well-spent.
When I moved to Ann Arbor, I went through a bit of moving-shock, and part of it involved insecurities about making a living in this new (and expensive) place. All of my modeling contacts were in Ohio, and while I sent out countless applications, resumes, and job-specific cover letters, I could not find regular employment in any field. Finally I was offered a job that I applied for out of desparation, but I found the environment unsuitable to my gentle disposition and left after a month. (No, it was nothing seedy, sorry!) I came up with a plan for budgeting over the next few months, and put my energy into renewing my etsy store, painting, and looking into ways to make my creativity profitable… I confess, I’m still at a loss. But thanks to my sister, I got a temporary editing job that I can do from home, and it pays well. Some of the anxiety has drained away, as I know there is money coming in, at least for this month and the next. I’ve also made some more contacts here for figure modeling, which has always been at the least a good source of side income, and at best, a modest living for a person with modest requirements.
I accept that I don’t know what the future will bring, and am trying to be happy despite the uncertainty. I look at the beautiful apartment that I live in with my beautiful and supportive lover, and I see that I might do well to simply enjoy this, instead of feeling restless whenever I’m doing something not related to my goal. I have to give myself this reminder on occasion, then I calm down for a while.
The table is cool! I need to use a 50% off coupon to get one of those fancy Daylight floor lights. The portable one I have is not enough! And, it is difficult to set out trying to make creativity pay the bills! I wish you much luck in your endeavors!